It's noted.
I'm sorry to be so forthright, but today sucked - big time! My day was forced into a shit storm, and I'm sure you know how things can be some times. Nevertheless, my heart is broken. Again. And I feel eaten up from inside to tell you the truth. Here we go again! Sometimes life just grabs you by the balls! It is a bit uncomfortable to share these things, but I feel that I want to be vulnerable and honest about things like these. (I know I'm supposed to be fifty and the mother of three children, all grown up and so on - but it isn't easy however old one gets. Sometimes shit happens, and life stinks. At least some times.)
Because I invested so much time and energy into the team, and I felt like we were a family. I know it sounds like a cliché, but that's how it felt. Safe, internal and true. So, now when this support isn't there anymore... It doesn't feel ok. But, no worries I will move on and this will be another good lesson for me.
If you are in this kind of situation, I feel you.
Lately I've been having great conversations about friendship with mye fourteen year old daughter. Life can be dramatic from day to day during those years, and I can remember that during those years we so easily believed that "the world has gone under" or "my life is over" etc. In our conversations I've tried sharing that perspective is important. And however sad, hurt, frustrating or mean actions the world throws at you feels - always stop, take a deep breath and focus on the big picture.
...And this is what I'm trying to do in this very moment, while writing these words. Life sucks sometimes, and actions like these can contain misunderstandings but also cruel intentions. This is the truth. That is why I think it is important to always have your own truth and keep your balance.
I have many things storming around me now. Life isn't easy for me these days. But I am happy, content, and I choose to believe that this very unfortunate situation is a blessing in disguise. It will pass, and I will learn to use less time on people who I cannot trust.
If you have issues like these, face them and try to solve them. At least as good as you can, and remember an honest effort is good for your soul. To wait and pick your timing, is also a solution. I believe that. But truth be told, a good conversation is a miracle cure. And sometimes things, people or companies are bad. And if that's the case I'm happy the situation appeared.
In my case, it's noted. I will solve my issues when the time is right.
I chose a picture of me from the beach. Keep focusing on what actually makes me happy.
Thanks for reading, and thanks for supporting me.
Jennifer
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